Self doubt.
I live in it everyday.
I breath it in almost every situation.

Sometimes I think I’m getting better and even try to convince myself that I don’t care what others think of me, but if I’m being honest I just do. I DO care if people like me and think I am “of worth”.
And I do care what others think of what I do. I know that it drives Chris crazy. It must be so exhausting for him to constantly be reassuring me. It’s not fair to him, and I want to change.

The other day while watching T.V, an advertisement came on for this movie:

Awww, cute little Drew Barrymore from when she filmed E.T

My son excitedly said “Hey that little girl looks like ‘A’!”

I smiled and had to agree with him.
But by the time we called our little monkey over, to show her, the picture on the screen had flashed to something else….

So what do you think???

…we DID! That’s right, we just had three glorious nights of uninterrupted sleep. And three glorious mornings of waking up…

We’re off to celebrate my Dad’s 60th birthday in VEGAS! Yippeeeeee! See you all on tuesday!