Self doubt.
I live in it everyday.
I breath it in almost every situation.

Sometimes I think I’m getting better and even try to convince myself that I don’t care what others think of me, but if I’m being honest I just do. I DO care if people like me and think I am “of worth”.
And I do care what others think of what I do. I know that it drives Chris crazy. It must be so exhausting for him to constantly be reassuring me. It’s not fair to him, and I want to change.