My Sweet Selah,

Last night I told you that I’d like you to stay 5 for another year. “Five was a fun year, why don’t you just stay little awhile longer?” You giggled and sang out “Noooo, I need to keep groooooowing!”

While I wish I could bottle up your innocence and stop time my prayer for you is that you would keep growing….. in kindness, compassion, joy and in your faith.

We sit together on the couch and she starts playing with my hair. Stroking it with her tiny fingers. She leans in close and whispers how beautiful I am.

Laughing I shoot and miss. Again. With a black controller in my hand I tell him how good he is at this game. He beams and patiently shows me once again- ‘A’ is to pass. ‘X’ is to slide. ‘B’ is to shoot. 

She comes alongside me as I prepare dinner. She asks to help and smiles wide when I tell her to pull up a chair. Together we put this and that into the pot. Together we serve.

She waits for me in her bed with a book in her hand. I curl up beside her and she starts to read. Some words come easily, others she takes her time to sound out. With each one her confidence grows and I get to share in her joy.

Tiny everyday miracles. Moments I try hard not to take for granted.

We sit together on the couch and she starts playing with my hair. Stroking it with her tiny fingers. She leans in close and whispers how beautiful I am.

Laughing I shoot and miss. Again. With a black controller in my hand I tell him how good he is at this game. He beams and patiently shows me once again- ‘A’ is to pass. ‘X’ is to slide. ‘B’ is to shoot. 

She comes alongside me as I prepare dinner. She asks to help and smiles wide when I tell her to pull up a chair. Together we put this and that into the pot. Together we serve.

She waits for me in her bed with a book in her hand. I curl up beside her and she starts to read. Some words come easily, others she takes her time to sound out. With each one her confidence grows and I get to share in her joy.

Tiny everyday miracles. Moments I try hard not to take for granted.

This song came on the radio today. I’ve heard it before, but today it sunk into my heart. More and more I find myself awakening to the reality that my life is truly beautiful- a gift. One that I didn’t earn or deserve….