I’ve missed this space.
This place where I can pour out my heart.
Where I can share silly stories.
Or fun recipes.
Or just simply document our family exactly as we are today.
In this moment.
But lately, life has felt a little like it’s on fast forward.
Sometimes the days feel long and yet also feel like they are gone in the blink of an eye.
(know what I mean?)
And I just don’t have time (or energy, or creativity) to come on here…
but I miss it.
I miss you.
Yes, YOU!!
I am still getting use to having four littles.
Four.
I still can’t believe my little family is exactly as I dreamed it would be when I was a little girl.
I wish my mom was here so that I could talk to her about what it was like raising four.
I’d ask her if she ever yelled at us.
(my memories of her are all rainbows and sunshine. chocolate chip cookies and sneaking homemade popcorn in paper bags to the movies theater.)
I don’t remember her yelling.
And yet, now as a mom of four who finds herself losing her cool, I wonder how she dealt with the stress.
I’d ask her how she had time of everything. The house, her kids, her marriage.
I’d ask her advice and soak in her wisdom.
I think part of my struggle is this online world we live in.
Because while I haven’t written on this blog for some time, I still find myself spending too much time online. I’m not sure how to find the balance I need.
How to be the mom I want to be and still run a photography business.
Still connect with friendships, especially with those who live so far away.
Still have the time to come on here and share my heart.
Document our life.
So here’s a start.
It’s where I’m at right now.
No pictures.
No fun stories.
Just a way to come back on here and be real.
I hope to play a bit of catch up on the blog. (I have so many posts yet to be written…going all the way back to Christmas! Eek!)
So, please don’t mind the randomness that is to come on here in the next little bit.
🙂
I’ve miss you and can’t wait to connect with you all again.
How have YOU been?!
I love Jesus, my guy Chris + our four. We seek joy. Homeschool. Adventure together. Mess up and start again.
It's nice to hear from you 🙂 I've been thinking about you a lot… I'll gladly take random catch up posts — makes me feel better about mine too!
I just love you! And your honesty! Good to read about you!
I understand about not having as much time to blog. (I have all of 3 posts so far this year!) Your sweet family comes first. Still, I'm glad you took the time to catch us up. 🙂
I've missed your sweet presence here, friend. I love that you have such good memories of your mama. And I would love to hear any of your randomness! 🙂 I have no advice on raising 4 kids and a photography career… other than live in God's grace day by day. 🙂
i'm positive this wasn't your intention but this post brought tears to my eyes, sara. thanks for being so real and honest. that balance is something i really struggle with too. something we need to chat about during our next visit perhaps. hugs to you!
I have missed you.
truly
missed you!
I do know what your mom would say and that would be "I'm so proud of you, Sara. You are walking in His will, day by day".
I relate to the randomness and between moving (yes, we're still up to our eyeballs in boxes 🙂 and photography sessions and friends/family visiting, I've just decided my life is not going to be seamless. And I'm ok with that. I've had to apologize to my kiddos for raising my voice, had to repent for having wrong attitudes, but you my friend are an amazing mom with one incredible heart for all things that are good. And you inspire me.
I cried reading your post about your mom. Twenty years. It is something I can't wrap my mind around. And makes it that much more awesome that you've overcome so much to be in the place that you are.
God is good and the fruit of your life is evident and bright to everyone. I don't think you realize the beautiful impact that you make with every post 🙂
love and miss you dearly!
kristin